Bind Your Heart
Silence…. Silence was only broken by the sound of a lone cawing crow in the only place I now found solitude and sanctuary. It flew uncomfortably close to me before settling on the gravestone that had held my attention. Its feathers glistened as they were hit by the dwindling sun. They shone purple and green as its Bowie knife pecked at the lichen. As I breathed in a deep calming breath, a feeling of comfort washed over me. I knew that she was here with me but was grateful that her grave remained unmarked. She should remain alive in the trees and the birds, not rotting in the earth. I watched as the bird mocked my grief before flying back up to the tree branches that appeared sinister with their absent foliage. I watched as he tended to his nest made of the dry winter branches surrounding the churchyard floor. A chill wind blew around my bare neck and face making my nose slightly moist as it caressed me. I wrapped my wool cloak closer to my slight frame and shuddered; though I had no intent on leaving, I deserved this. I deserved to feel this pain and anguish both internally and externally. I should be in the ground, not her. At least I knew her body was in the trees whereas mine was in hell. That was my only conciliation.
A compelling coming of age tale of sexual ambiguity and awakening. When a shy new girl joins the local school, she is unaware of the dramatic effect and impact her presence causes. A story charged with romance and sexual taboo, longing and loss. We follow the exploits and journeys of the heroes as they take their chosen paths through adolescence, new freedoms, and desires.
“No heart? Really? You think? Of course, I am different now. You changed me; you broke me! Walked away from me making me question everything and everyone. I was a mess! So, I learned to fight back and disengage for my own protection and sanity.
Yes, I have changed. I never want to feel that vulnerable again. So, excuse me if I do not placate you with pleasantries about some cheap noodles you found at the back of my cupboard. You destroyed my faith in humanity and then you waltz back into my world with the feeble excuse that you were confused!”
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